A hiatus from my blog was never part of my vision, but neither did I contemplate how I would feel after the November 8th national election. Looking back at that fateful day, once the shock wore off, I easily slipped into activist mode, forsaking my blog, as writing at that time meant scripting my fears. It seemed less painful to hold my breath, maintain a controlled distress. I had seen so many on both sides of the aisle succumb to scorching criticism from those in their social circles, leaving bruised feelings in their wake.
Yes, we are in a very polarizing time in our history, one which leaves me weary as I swim through a deep well of sadness. I feel the need to stay informed on pressing matters in our country and the world as I, like so many, have had my complacency exposed. I can no longer go back to that idyllic ‘ignorance is bliss’ time in my life but my need for some semblance of harmony is acute. So, how to balance this newfound discovery? That is the question that echoes through the hallways of my mind.
Regular exercise, visits from friends, and meditation have all been cornerstones for me these past few months and I am grateful for them all. Thankfully consuming large amounts of alcohol didn’t become part of my daily routine, although it may have had the coveted numbing effect. Nothing fills up those empty spaces for me more than connecting with the natural world, filling that wild spot that resides in my soul. I yearn for the muted ebb and flow of nature’s rhythms, far removed from the harsh reality of our everyday lives, where the frequent reminder that many of us have forgotten our connectedness to each other is too commonplace.
We have departed once again for our summer adventures. I feel lighter already as I look ahead to the uninterrupted breathing space that I always find in wilderness. We will be spending our summer in Yellowstone National Park volunteering as program assistants for Yellowstone Forever, fka Yellowstone Association. Reconnecting with friends and supporting the naturalists who conduct field seminars should make for a stimulating summer. As internet allows, I will share some of our exploits. Stay tuned!
“There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled. There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled. You feel it, don’t you?” ~ Rumi